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momma trauma

You’re so happy and
cute when you’re high

The next time you get high
just look in the mirror

It’s quite a sight!

Do you remember your
first birthday party
when you got all that
cake and ice cream
and your first
big bump
of sugar?

Of course not

You were only
one year old then

I’ll bet
your momma remembers
the first time
she got you
high on sugar

Your reaction
was so cute

Your reaction
was priceless

Your reaction
was just like
a shot of meth

I’ve been addicted to
sugar ever since
I got my first big shot
of sugar

I may have been
clean and sober
and
off drugs and alcohol
for quite
some time now

but I’m still a
suffering
caffeine
nicotine
and
sugar
addict

I remember now
things
I could not
remember

when I
first got
clean and sober

I’ve recalled now
entire years of my
childhood
and
adolescence

that before were
hidden away
somewhere
in my
subconscious
mind

When I first got clean
and
tried to remember

what happened
way back then

there was no memory

My brain just
drew a blank

because so many
of my
early memories

were
too painful
to deal with

My childhood brain
put my memories
in a
place where
I could not
find them

My childhood brain
had moved
those painful memories

from my
conscious mind
to my
subconscious mind

Although
my childhood brain had
repressed my memories

my grown-up brain
could still feel the pain

Alcohol and drugs made
that pain go away

as long as I had
alcohol and drugs
around to
medicate that pain

That pain was the
root cause of
my addiction

The fundamental
cause that
started
my addiction was
“Momma Trauma”

but it could have been
any trauma

Uncle Trauma
Daddy Trauma
Sister Trauma
Brother Trauma
Bully Trauma
Physical Trauma
Mental Trauma
You-name-it Trauma

Children are
born with
great radar systems

Children know
what’s fair
and
what’s unfair

Children know
what’s right
and
what’s wrong

particularly
when they are
very very young

and that’s
all they know

Children are born happy

Children naturally
grow up
to be
happy adults

except for
too many children
who are
traumatized

while they are
still children

Many of those
traumatized children
become grown-up addicts

when grown-ups
treat their
childhood pain
with chemicals that
dull that pain

During the time
I spent
considering the
6 Secular Suggestions

and

meeting with
my first
addiction recovery sponsor

many of my traumatic
childhood memories
came back

automatically
bit by bit
from my

subconscious mind
into my
conscious mind

because
my brain was
aware that
I was now
clean and sober

and that

I was finally
mentally healthy
enough to

deal with that pain
without using
alcohol or drugs to
medicate that pain

Do you have
years of
your life
that you can not
remember?

If so
you are not alone

Life is a journey

So why not get
an addiction recovery sponsor
and
let him or her
guide you on
your recovery journey?

And don’t forget to
forgive your mother

You’re all grown up now

It’s a rare
Momma Trauma
that’s intentional

And while
you’re at it

try to forgive
everyone else
who did you wrong

and make amends to
who you did wrong

It’s the only way to
stay clean and sober

Forgive everyone
and
let it all go

Make amends
to everyone
and
let it all go

or
that shit will
eat at
your soul

and

you might relapse
and
go to
jail
or a
mental institution
or
die early

AND THAT’S THE TRUTH

If you let your
Momma Trauma
go
bit by bit

then

you might not relapse

The heaviest burden
for a child
is the unlived lives
of his parents.
–Carl Jung

I suggest that you start here

AND THAT’S THE TRUTH